Revelation

Constantly reaching out to a hand that isn't there. You always say you love me but never show me that you care. As I deal my daily issues all I can think about is how much I miss you.a part of my life for so long, some things were right but most of it wrong. The jail time, the drugs, the women, and the lies I was there through it all. . I've known you for 11 years yet now I don't even know who you are. You've guarded yourself against getting hurt by me but I loved you with everything that was in me. Just Like Bonnie and Clyde and Romeo and Juliet our love story has a tragic end. Yet and still you always want to remain my friend. I call you don't answer. I text you don't reply. The only question I have is why? All I ever did was love you. I tried to be the perfect woman for you so that you'd  never want another. had dreams of being a wife and a mother. Selfish of you to only think of your heart while mine has been ripped out, torn, and shredded apart. Chasing after a love that doesn't want to be caught, it's the hardest lesson I've ever been taught. learning to let go and love me without you, is one of the things I never thought I'd have to do. I'm the perfect girl but for the wrong guy. I should smile at this revelation instead I want to cry. As I put the pieces of my life back together, a part of you will always exist in the back of my mind. I was far to kind and wish I could  press rewind and do things differently. I've come to the conclusion that this love wasn't meant to be.